Monday, February 25, 2008

Hello blogging world, i am back! We had a pretty low-key weekend, which was nice. Church yesterday was so great, Allyson led worship which i always love because she is so awesome. Then Justin preached, and it was just an amazing message about truth. He talked about how we all distort the truth so much in life, and try to sell ourselves as so much better and in the church people try and make themselves appear to be this super spiritual giant who has it all together. I really struggle with this I know. I think for a period in my life when I wasn't living for God I felt s though people within the church looked at me and pitied me, and were like "Oh, that poor girl, she is just making such bad choices, she really just needs to get her life back together" And so now I know that Satan uses that to make me feel as though I need to constanly keep up this super spiritual persona, and I just have so much pride sometimes with this attitude of "Look at my life now, it is so good right now" When in reality I am just one slip away from the pit, just like everyone else, not to mention that those kind of prideful thoughts are just as dispicable to God as those outward sins like partying and such. The truth is that my life is still a mess, and the enemy so wants to catch us in a trap of secrecy and lies, even if it is just lies to ourselves about how good our lives are. He just wants us to be honest before him, and lay all our mess at his feet. I know this is a daily thing, and I am going to really work on it.

SO, to switch subjects, so many of my friends are either pregnant or have little babies right now. It is so hard sometimes for me because I really do miss the sweet newborn stage, i don't know if it is just a phase that I am going through because all my friends are still in that stage. i am happy with our family the way it is, so I guess I just need to get the fix from all my friend's babies!

I am hoping to take some good pictures of the kids this week and post them, so be on the lookout!


Melisa said...

Your kids are beautiful and your husband is a cutie. Thanks for letting me have a look into your life.

I'm like you, I never want to take pride in doing well because I'm always one step away....


nicole said...

true true. Everything about this post. It's good to know I'm not alone in my attitude of pride sometimes and being one slip from the pit also. Thanks for sharing.